My life My war

2011-04-27T01:20:00.003+08:00

there are things you cannot see even its right under your nose.
you have no idea how much did it cost me for it.
for you for me.

returning

2011-04-26T14:53:00.002+08:00

well its been 2 years and here i am again, back here reading my own old post and its pretty nostalgic. How annoying and bratty i was right? But fuck it.
i am here to rant about a few couple of things and i am outta here maybe will come back after 2 years again. 2 years flew by pretty fast no?
here i am ranting about my life. 2 years ago i am ranting about my highschool life and how miserable it was. back then i am just this little brat who though he know it all, comes down to it, i get nothing down and settled. so i can say college life is most tougher due to the fact that you are too free to do anything. no stupid highschool rules and regulations bounding you and you can literally make any decisions you want but you better not regret it. 10 years from now when i look at my blog again. i might thought "heh, this stupid kid..."

P/S to future me: if you regret what you did now, fuck yourself and up yours!

i might continue the Valkyrie story if i have time.

going to move again....i think...

2009-10-27T02:33:00.001+08:00

okay i will move again...gosh..been so lazy...

2009-07-27T20:43:00.002+08:00

oh my god....i am bored....and feel so empty....like i am missing something....oh wait....i did miss something....god....please let time flies....she is suffering at the other side....i am being tormented by boredom....and i miss you,.....so much...god.....help me....and its only day 2......ergh....*puke blood*

Cursing

2009-06-28T23:54:00.003+08:00

FUCK YOU SON OF A BITCH!

I WISH I NEVER ACCEPT THIS FUCKING JOB!
THIS IS NOT MY SHIT!

you said "I" am the only person who can rely on now. and what are you doing now? enjoying paradise with your dearly beloved while me and your right hand man burning the midnight oil doing your shit. i can see i am the only person you can rely on, even if i am the hero i don't want to be your hero. good fuck yourself!

thank you and good night~

...

2009-06-24T16:48:00.002+08:00

its been awhile now, i just wanna say, i sometimes can't be there when you in need of me or know how you feel whenever you feel depressed, angry, pissed. i can only see skin deep. whatever beyond that its a mystery. sometimes you have to tell me, call me slow of whatever you want.

i just realized i don't know you much.

BULLSHIT!

2009-06-20T22:37:00.002+08:00

you gotta be fucking kidding me.....i've been delaying my work for your shit and now you wanna take my birthday away?.......damn you pussy!

okay have anyone told you before that your face have the word selfish written all over it?
did anyone told you before that the word "boot-licker" is written all over your tongue?
well i am telling you now.

your face is like a pussy that only think about yourself and never think of others. if the other who think you are selfless.....they're just blind or too retarded to realize....

if you are thinking that you are too smart for people like me then don't rely on me....go find someone else....when you need someone you treated that person like god and when you don't need em' you treat like trash....so go fuck yourself...i won't do it anymore...

with your i-am-too-smart-for-you timing and management....the world will end before the time given by god....

we're doing your shit while you and your girlfriend chit-chat happily doing your school work while i DITCH MY SCHOOL WORK TO DO YOUR WORK AND STAY UP EVERY NIGHT TILL 3 AM IN THE FUCKING MORNING DOING MY WORK!......so be considered...and let me go....i will not do it...

thats all for today....and who ever i am talking now....please....fuck yourself....

Crimson Moon

2009-06-15T01:18:00.002+08:00

few night ago, i saw a crescent moon which shinning ever so fade. its not an ordinary sight, its crimson. maybe its the clouds and the mixture of the yellow glow emitted by the moon. the sight send a chill up my spine.

today, i see the same old moon which glowing dully again.

for normal days, the moon would glow all by itself while the other stars covered by the clouds or the atmosphere is too thick for the fade shine of a twinkle star.

tonight, like always the moon expected to be glowing alone in the night sky till the break of dawn when her friend would take her shift. tonight she was glowing ever so brightly, i can't seems to find the reason why.

as the other stars was covered by the clouds, except for one. it was shinning brightly along with her.

is this how mother nature tell us that, no matter how lonely we get, there is always someone or something supporting us and rooting for us while others turn their backs.

i was about to sleep and as i stare into the night sky, i notice the moon and there is a single star shinning by her side.

thanks to the scene, i get a very nice inspiration.

the star and the moon, what an odd couple.

accidentally in love

2009-06-08T22:40:00.002+08:00

yes....a few days ago....i don't know that this song even exist....and now its stuck in my head.....its playing in my head over and over again....not that its a bad thing, in fact its a nice thing~

song is Accidentally In Love by Counting Crows Shrek 2 OST

Lyrics.
So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love

Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love [x7]

Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally [x2]

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love ...I'm in love

Happy!

2009-05-31T13:01:00.003+08:00

i feel SO HAPPY EVERYDAY! even there is no reason why, i just feel happy~ =] mwahahahahaah. thats all i gonna say on this post~weeeee~

tagged by this girl called lay hoong and i am so bored....

2009-05-28T13:35:00.004+08:00

alrightie this thingy is fun sometimes when you're really bored......i mean really bored on Friday aftrernoon.....here goes! if you wanna read it please highlight it.....

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage : water....
2. Last phone call: Kai
3. Last text message: Kai again....
4. Last song you listened to: Grant, Tory, Adam, Jamie, Kari, Myth Busters Narrator
5. Last time you cried: when i was 8 maybe...forgot...

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: nope....
7. Been cheated on: not really i guess...
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: never tried.....
9. Lost someone special: hmm......i don't wanna try that....
10. Been depressed: yeah, come on we're humans...
11. Been drunk and threw up: drunk yes.....never threw up....

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Blue
13. Teal
14. Green

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yeap
16. Fallen out of love: hmmmmm.......nope....
17. Laughed until you cried: nope, but i laugh till i can't breath....
18. Met someone who changed you: yeap
19. Found out who your true friends were: yeah and i am glad he root for me till the end. SORRY!
20. Found out someone was talking about you: errrr......no....?
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: not once....
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: not sure....
23. How many kids do you want?: none will be good, if accident happened, 2 will do fine.
24. Do you have any pets: yeah, 3 annoying dogs
25. Do you want to change your name: no, unless someone come hunting for me XD
26. What did you do for your last birthday: see Yu Kee suffer with hot taufu in his mouth
27. What time did you wake up today: 7 am....
28. What were you doing at midnight: talking to kai with my eyes half shut....
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: getting into college and do what i do best
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 9 am in the morning...
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: maybe gain some weight and build some muscle?
32. What are you listening to right now : MYTH BUSTED!
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yeap and he sound like a retarded red neck...and he is a chinese.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Voon Fei ain't replying my sms....
35. Most visited webpage: i never check the counts....if there is any...
36. Whats your real name: Liew Hon Keat
37. Nicknames: Han, Hanji, Huney, Hamji, whatever you could think of...
38. Relationship Status: can i not answer this? i mean it kinda personal.....who ever know this people, SILENCE I KILLLLLLL YOU!

39. Zodiac sign: Cancer
40. Male or female?: Male
41. Primary School?: Sekolah Sri Suria
42. Secondary School?: Cempaka Cheras
43. High school/college/university?: Cempaka Cheras
44. Hair colour: dark brown...
45. Long or short: short...
46. Height: about 165cm taller then the short one!
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: yeah....now its not a crush anymore....
48: What do you like about yourself?: optimistic i guess....
49. Piercings: none.....planing to get a few on my left ear
51. Righty or lefty: righty!

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: hmmmmm....i don't think so....
53. First piercing: never had 1
54. First best friend : there are 2 first is Kah Chun i know him as long as i remember and at 6 or 7 i knew Kai!
55. First sport you joined: Teak won-do
56. First vacation: can't remember
58. First pair of trainers: long long time ago....i think i still have it..

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: Macaroni with cream of Mushroom
60. Drinking: clear warm water...
61. I'm about to: finish my food...
62. Listening to: birds....
63. Waiting on: huh?

YOUR FUTURE
64. What kids?: what kids? CHINESE LA! STUPID QUESTION!
65. Get Married?: hmmmm...depends....
66. Career?: character designer/ illustrator/ game producer for a game company...

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Lips .
68. Hugs or kisses: kisses
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: Younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: nice arms.
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive.
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: trouble maker.

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: HEY! how many kissing questions are there? cause i never kissed a person....
77. Drank hard liquor: yes, cause me to have teary eyes and i will never drink chinese rice wine ever again...
78. Lost glasses/contacts: never had specs......eat more carrot kids!
79. Sex on first date: no......
80. Broken someone's heart: yeah my parent?
82. Been arrested: yeah a couple of times by my parents....BUSTED!
83. Turned someone down: i guess so....
84. Cried when someone died: not really, maybe they went to a better place
85. Fallen for a friend?: yeap......who is a girl...

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: yeap.....still have doubt though....
87. Miracles: yeah when PS3 fall from the sky
88. Love at first sight: yeap depends how you see it
89. Heaven: Maybe....
90. Santa Claus: my father?
91. Kiss on the first date: belum try lagi.....
92. Angels: i believe she is already by my side

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: NO! i am a faithful person....
95. Did you sing today?: yes! in my toilet VIVA LA VIDA BABY!
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: nope.....
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: maybe last week when i could change the course of the future...
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: not sure....everyday is the same to me...
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? : yeah, might be the wrong person....
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: i don't know how to answer this question....

FIVE lucky ppl to do tis quiz -->
1- kai
2. junne
3.kiet eie
4.anyone who read this post..heheh

100th POST!

2009-05-25T14:53:00.002+08:00

okay this is my 100th post....back from singapore and its monday.

alright, beside that i am sick and having a major hangover when i woke up this morning.......ditched school today.....

beside having a hangover today, i kinda felt....something really weird....i am not sure what it is.....and also really bad....damn.....wish i could do something....

well i guess that is that and lets move on to Distant World ~music from Final Fantasy~ ITS A BANG! I SWEAR I NEVER SEEN SUCH CONCERT BEFORE! IT ROCK TO MY VERY CORE! except the balding guy sitting in front of me who is 100% Singaporean and a gamer and trying to be cool (he is trying too hard) anyway he suck....and me and kai meet Nobuo-sensei in person...man...he is old!

2009-05-18T00:23:00.003+08:00

today is a fucking nice day to be fucking pissed of things, let me tell you why i am fucking piss, because i woke up like 50 cents today, why? i don't know. then i start talk to a bunch of friends, it seems okay and after that i took a nap. after i woke up i am pissed again. i literally hate everything i touched.

now there some shit saying that, what is yours is yours and what is not is not. this is how things work right? alright i give you guys another shit, when you want something they don't appear and when you don't need them they fucking pop outta fucking nowhere. how about that?

yeap that is what happened to me today. most of the things that i want it to happen seems not to happen....

and its pissing me off. i know is a small matter but when it happen the entire day you will feel how i feel.

I AM SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW......and yet.....feeling a bit of nostalgic...i found something in my cupboard and decide to take a picture and share with you guys out there. i didn't even know its in my cupboard. for 4 years it has been in there. seems like time can age it while i aged and it became my distance memory and grow further and further away from me. here it is my distant memory which contain great memories and also awful ones....you will get what i mean.

Let your Music live

2009-05-17T14:16:00.003+08:00

its raining and i have nothing to do....physics almost got me....and i did something productive....here ya go

2009-05-15T22:43:00.002+08:00

alrightie....i am bored as usual....and i come across kiet eie's blog and she TAGGED me...
well i guess this is my reply...i swear it might contain some stupid answers..............
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alright you got me...........most of it actually.......

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?

hmmm....never think about it......i will think about it...

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning ?

LIKE 50 CENTS! *the moment i woke up* YOW NIGGER! goes back to sleep for 5 minutes...

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with ?
with no one.....but i took people's photo~

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled ?
maybe a little.....neah i don't think so...

5. Will you ever donate blood ?
i would if i am little fatter.....cause i am kinda....scrawny....you see....

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ?
of course.....

7. Do you want someone to be dead ?
yeah, a lot actually, i will post my list next time!

8. What does your last text message say ?
F*** YOU! hey i have to be honest right?

9. What are you thinking right now ?
getting a girlfriend.....HEY YOU! YES YOU! IF YOU TELL ANYONE I SWEAR I WILL KILL YOU! DON'T THINK I DON"T KNOW!

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right now ?
yeah......talk to me now.....

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
well i am not sure if its consider at night cause i kinda sleep at 2 am in the morning.....is it consider night?

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
not sure......maybe i robbed it.....

13. Is someone on your mind right now ?
do you mean.....the one i like like one? if yes......nope.....i swear!.....i ain't lying.....maybe half of it but i am not lying...

14. Who was the last person who text you ?
thats like last week......

Person to do this quiz...
anyone who see this thing!

BE GONE CHEMISTRY!

2009-05-14T22:09:00.002+08:00

YAR!!!!!!.......

...............................i feel like choke slaming the chemistry paper today..........its not even alive thats the best part....maybe i could choke slam myself (-_-''|)

i still wondering how to do it.....i've been searching tutorials how to do it....but nothing pop up in google....

sejarah paper tomorrow.....YAY~ .....crap.... another paper that make me feel choke slaming myself again.....

then monday is physics.....how should i put this? MY WORLD ID ENDING!
*drop dead*

trying to pretend to be dead but its kinda fake....stupid ke le feh.....

hey come on.....no one is perfect~
like this dude said....there is nothing negative....

so this how it begins....

why people who can do better in life because they are imperfect, while i am more imperfect then him! thats all not a BIG deal.....

now i feel like hanging myself and turn myself into salted human.....and then people could make special dish outta me~ weee~ how fun....getting choped into pieces....and eat and digested....what could be better? maybe turning myself into barbeque human....

anyway after all this bullshit.....my point of this post is.....
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joke of the day

2009-05-13T16:01:00.002+08:00

okay i heard this joke from voon fei and the joke from Ee Von.

this is how it start,

one morning the employer walk into his office and his secretary saw his pants is unzip and said,
Secretary: Boss, i think you forgot to close your gate when you're leaving your house this morning.

the employer scratched his head and wondered what happened.....

after a few moments, the employer finally got what she meant and he see his secretary and said to her,
Employer: So when i left my gate opened did you see my BMW inside?
Secretary: No.....but i saw a Kancil with flat tires.....

The boss walked away with silence....

-The End-

back....

2009-05-05T20:50:00.000+08:00

okay since i have lotta problems with tabulas so i decide to run 2 blogs.......this and the other one.....this blog will manage my days and stuff and crap like that and the other will be regarding only on my artworks.....

2009-04-24T12:24:00.001+08:00

okay since you guys don't believe that i move my blog, then i will show you the links....okay now it will be bigger, stronger and MORE COLORFUL!

the link is..........hanworks.tabulas.com see it now?

2009-04-20T19:43:00.000+08:00

i am officially moving!

my new blog is hanworks.tabulas.com please drop by, chat box will put in soon....until i learn how to do it....

2009-04-18T22:02:00.000+08:00

hmmmm....

okay....i am feelings....abit......odd......mix feelings.....maybe lost.....okay i am not sure.

need advise but i can't seek for anyone.

Anyone that know how i feel, know what i should do.

i need someone who can guide me through the dark without letting me fall and never let go until the light is found.

should i walk alone in the dark or just sit and wait for guidance?

as far as i know... i am drifting dark never know what time of the day is it....

is it dusk or is it dawn or even is it midnight?

there are voices in my head yet i unable to hear them.

every time i close my eyes and open them, i still see the same darkness.

someone or something please lighten my path.

Puppet on A lonely String

2009-04-15T18:55:00.000+08:00

Whats a puppet on a lonely string you ask?

its a puppet which have only 1 string and will not move until someone moves it.

why SOME people have to be that puppet?

i know its not easy turning from a puppet to a human. Even Pinocchio had troubles but he is happy because he became a boy!

NOW, since he had became a boy, he can have his own will and control.

Like Al Gore said, people learn something when there is a dramatic twist of events, and people will not learn from a gradual turning events, they will simply adapt to the problems.

So i am trying to create a massive dramatic twist of event, and why don't you get it and take it as if i am trying to snatch something from you? WHY? why are you so dense?

have you not realize this simple think and i hope you will get it from this post, whether you will read this post or not, i will leave this post here until you read if and if YOU read it please tell me and ask me questions, i want ask questions like what you should do and what you shouldn't!

please realize it, i really want you to....

please...

P/S: hope you know who you are.

AL GORE ROCKS!

2009-04-14T23:34:00.000+08:00

okay i got a new idol! he is US vice president, or maybe former. i don't know...anyway his campaign really inspire me to save the world. His slide shows are so well presented, the slide he uses, the resources he got and many more. you guys should watch Al Gore's -The Inconvenient Truth-

In this life time, we might see a dramatic change in the world's climate and even face the most devastating natural disasters. to save the world we should act as "one" as Human race, not Asians, Europeans, Americans and other races. We should even try to change the structure politics whether its ethnics problems or not.

Religions are only beliefs that people believe in and what makes them real to them. Its time we should just put this matter aside and change. Earth is the only place we have. Why people or even scientist believe that the universe is huge, saying "AWH! c'mon! The Universe is HUGE! I AM SURE we could find a new planet!"

okay here is another question, "what IF there are none?"
Estimated answer would be -there is impossible we couldn't find any!-

Oh really now? try giving me prove, solid prove to back up your theory.

While you doing that, why not just make a difference for the time being?

Moving

2009-04-13T22:30:00.000+08:00

okay i will soon move to tabulas blog, since someone, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!, is better so i decide to try it out, since blogger have slower uploading speed i guess its time i switch, further notice will be given when i finally moved.

crazy artwork

2009-04-10T20:37:00.000+08:00

okay here is the crazy artwork i am working on currently.....this is the raw scan and hope by next week i get to finish the first step!

FINALLY!

2009-04-08T18:10:00.000+08:00

okay i finally finished Rockman Zero.....stupid game.....i have to spend 48 hours to complete the game.....damn....now the only thing i have to do is....finish the game 100%....but lazy to do it, so i decided to download another Rockman series! ROCKMAN BATTLE NETWORK SERIES! another nerve wrecking game.....

2009-04-07T22:14:00.000+08:00

okay its been awhile since i update my blog. recently addicted to old games, like Rockman Zero series, the game rocks even with crazy stages and nerve wrecking SOB bosses and other crap. CAPCOM also produces games that are SO DAMN HARD YOU WILL CRY TEARS OF BLOOD! anyway here are the snap shots.

2009-03-24T23:56:00.001+08:00

alright here is are some pictures....quite old but not sure i post it here yet.....

2009-03-22T23:40:00.000+08:00

post that related to the previous post.

from kai's blog.

when a man make it too straight, like me who hates people to beat around the bush.
woman will say, "why are you so straight?"
so woman like mysterious guys huh?
then if you can get one then good for you,
but you must put this into your heads, not just your ego.
mysterious guys= great!

as kai said;"For every action, there is an equally opposite reaction"
who knows those "mysterious guys" will dump you when they got bored of you.

so think about it.

if you girls out there who thinks i am a pure sucker then you girls try to find a guy and when that really happened, don't bother crying. if everything does work out as you planned, good for you.

2009-03-22T23:12:00.000+08:00

today had been, maybe a depressing i guess....

not sure what hit me, but i know something big hit me yet i don't realize it at all. as i kept listening to the song playing, it make me think alot, as if i never thought of such things before.

its really hard to put it in words, even Shakespeare might not even come out a word for this weird feeling. maybe people grow up as nature already set it but somehow there is something within me that is stopping it.

sometimes being childish and immaturity doesn't have to be necessary to be care-free and always have to be happy-go-lucky. people will not take it seriously even you put on a serious face. they will just take your words as joke.

i am not sure if people are using me as a tool of entertainment. when you're gone people beg for you to come back as they thought it will be fun when you're around. basically they just wanted you to fill up the space they suddenly thought of. when you're there, they might not even know you are there. when i say a joke and being childish in there, they will laugh and you start to think, "hey i am something after all in them" such a fool i am to think of such....i finally ran out of words for this.

no one gonna remember me, as i am the backdrop in an act. no one gonna take it serious, especially from the fool from the streets.

will anyone believe me when i say the sky is falling? will anyone take my word that i will find a fallen star? will anyone trust me when i see an angel decent upon me saying that the human-race will be wiped out except me?

tell me when your hearts are open to except a fool's word. any fool, me, a beggar, a mad man, anyone at all. the most important thing, do you believe in your own words.

is it human's nature?

and i do not want anyone to feel sorry or guilty, this is just merely what i think and words from a fool.

-Han-

2009-03-17T13:00:00.001+08:00

landscape pictures~

2009-03-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

okay i am being tagged by this girl.....man....anyway this is most probably my first....
and you know most of the answer will not make any sense at all.

1) Do you believe in god?
i think so, most probably HE is sitting there watching and laughing at out miseries.

2) What is your favorite thing to do?
drawing...(currently)

3) If you are given a chance to reverse your life, will you go back to the past?
Who would give me this chance? if there is no, why bother changing if shit already happened....and most probably you will make it worse.

4) What would you do if you were to die tomorrow?
spend time with my love ones.

5) Is there someone in your heart now?
Yes, my PS3

6) Do you feel loved in this world.
yeap, even its out of this world.

7) What are you afraid to lose the most?
my memories.

8) What are you feel like doing right now?
improve my drawings.

9) If there is someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
i am not sure whether she will like me back or not, i will do it until i am 100% sure that she love me in return, no point saying something that might even effect your friendship.

10)List 5 Things that you like in a guy/girl
I- her smile
II-her eyes
III-her sense of humor
IV-things that she did that i like about her. (hahahahah)
V-maybe her body......(hey i am guy alright, its perfectly normal aye?)

11)what are the requirements that you not wish from your other half?
i don't really know....i like everything about me.....i am who i am

12)What do you think purpose in life?
humor god....

13)Do you feel like killing someone at the moment?
yes, myself

14)If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
better off eat absolutely nothing.

15)If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
Money=happiness.

16)If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to chance?
soft-spot for everyone.

17)What is the most prized possession that you wish you can bring to heaven?
my PSP, heaven might be a boring place.....

18)Am i a romantic person?
No i am not.

19)What is the one thing you love about yourself?
my creativity i think....

20)Do you ever regret together with your ex before?
very tough question, tell you next time!

Tag
-zhin ee
-Junne
-Kai
-fatman
-thinman

2009-03-14T00:23:00.001+08:00

Hate, loathe or despite?

i am not sure anymore, i should move out when i am in college or not. i can't stand my parent's shit anymore.

first watching tv peacefully and when they come home.

Dad enters the house after locking the locks and shit.
Dad: AIYA! forget my specs.....
Me:......*continue watching tv*
Dad: Ah Keat! can you help me go get my glasses?
Me: WHAT?! no way i am watching tv peacefully! go get your own.
Dad: the movie you watch can repeat ma!

why the fuck you have to ask me to do this shit? why can't you get it yourself? why do you have to lock all the locks and forget? am i your fucking dog or your son?
you jealous i can watch TV peacefully is it?
thats why i start to hate kids, eventually they will hate me back just like i hate my dad right now or even my parents.

you give birth to a child and ask him to do this and that....fuck you, if you can't understand certain things i am glad i could help but this minor shit you ask me to do, like fetching you your newspaper, getting your specs everytime you come into the house licking everything and ask me to open it again and get your glasses and lock everything back.

you even wake me up to help you lock the door and you watching TV downstairs.
what the fuck are you thinking?

NOW DOGS! awwwhhhhh they are so damn cute!

fuck yeah they're cute and noisy, barking mad in 5 AM in the morning waking the whole house?! isn't it cute?

since it like to be outta the cage so damn much, its sleeping outside the house with my big dad'o dog! cute huh? see how that bitch like it now?

2009-03-11T18:32:00.000+08:00

My unsung life-

never known what i am capable at, why compare my capabilities with someone else?

is that person good at what i am capable of?

am i not good enough?

so is that person perfect?

i know i am imperfect and you are the same as i am, imperfect.

i have not brought any victory, so what?

you want victory? go get it yourself.

2009-03-09T13:32:00.000+08:00

now i intro you guy my newest idol beside tetsuya nomura, hideo kojima, Da Vinci, megaman creator (forgot his name), the one create Ace Combat series (don't know his name) and Nobuo. HERE HE IS! KATSUYA TERADA! man his artworks rocks even though there is some nudity but his artworks are awesome! http://artbookarchive.blogspot.com/2007/09/katsuya-terada-artbook-and-art.html

please be warn, these pictures contain nudity and parental guidance is required.

SPM or not SPM my only hope is that i would able to produce artwork half as beautiful as his.

2009-03-04T12:32:00.000+08:00

OKAY GUY I AM BACK WITH MORE WALLPAPERS~ still working on JUNNE'S wallpaper okay here you go,SAVE THE WORLD

2009-02-23T03:10:00.001+08:00

Kai! this is the picture i wanna show since my stupid skype don't work...

2009-02-10T22:01:00.000+08:00

OKAY! THANKS TO VOON FEI'S monthly photography magazine i learn something new REALLY NEW. so i decided to give it a try and here are the results! comment on it okay! as a great guy once said, comments are love so GUY SHOW ME YOUR LOVE!

2009-02-02T23:28:00.000+08:00

okay here is what i did.....

2009-02-02T19:05:00.000+08:00

alright......chinese new year is almost over......and through out this holiday, i have nothing to do....so i did this....this only take me 15 mins and it turn out okay....maybe.......okay i did this cause i am bore..... i will upload more soon......someday....

2009-01-29T02:01:00.000+08:00

i have nothing in mind recently, so i tried things to occupy myself and i still get bored....homework....empty......essays......not a single word. how lazy can i get?

have to do it. maybe this Saturday......maybe....

trying alot of ways to improve my drawings.....still i expect myself to draw better, but hey, every professionals take years of practice.

currently still working on my scanned drawing and consistence of hardcore study.

and boredom..

2009-01-25T00:08:00.000+08:00

i dedicate this post to my friend Kiet Eie,

Life is nothing like a time line, when you are born, lord grant your soul a body, in return you must find a purpose and live.

What is purpose you ask?

Purpose is not granted by lord but it is what you want to do. Some people may ask whats the purpose of life? People who ask this question is either lost or lazy to search or make his own purpose.

When you are born, you are plain as nothing-ness. its like a blank journal. when you open the journal you write your name and turn to the first page, thats how your life begin. and at the middle, you will start thinking what you would find at the last page of the journal. you will find nothing because you have not decide your ending your purpose. so if you ever have a journal, turn to the last page and write your purpose. then your life will go smooth, because you have make your purpose.

i never know you would read this or even visit my blog. if you do and read this you might thought i am a simple minded person. i don't really care but one thing you should know is that your life is your own will. only you can change it other people are just guide or even nuisance.

in other case, you take life as a war. fight till you reach your purpose.

you never know till then.

now thou shall decide your own purpose.

Kai,

if you ever read my blog.

you become more positive compare to last time, i am proud that you have found your purpose.

even thought life is unfair, there is a reason and without a reason FUCK you-know-who. he is toying you and when you meet him, show him the finger. i am sure he have an explanation.

okay i know i am making a speech here. i know this year gonna be a long tiring year, everything have its end you know. hope that this year end in a good way.

THERE ARE STILL ASSHOLES WHO I DON'T LIKE SO FUCK YOU AND FUCK OFF, don't piss me off. i bite, screw, punch, kick, slap, shop, slash, knock, nail, step, stomp, chew, grind, poke, stab, scratch, cut, toss, throw, and lastly chain you up and burn you......

-THE END-

now here comes the credit.

wait for it......

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forget it.

2009-01-24T12:19:00.000+08:00

recent drawing......colouring it.....and i will upload both in my deviant page.....please do give a few comments. as there is a human say, comments are love

2009-01-23T12:54:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year is almost here, another is about to begin, and 26th of Jan there will be a solar eclipse in KL, and maybe in the peninsular Malaysia. The estimated time is about 4.30PM~ 7.00PM so i have heard.

i will be in KL watching as the moon devour the Sun and the afternoon sky turn into the midnight darkness. pretty cool huh?

Today, i feel so lucky to see an event the is so.....magical as they say.

i will post those photos if i get to snap it.

2009-01-11T13:56:00.001+08:00

okay i shall upload more later....

2009-01-11T13:41:00.001+08:00

okay because blogger sucks at uploading my pictures i have to split it into a few post....pardon my stupidity

2009-01-11T13:09:00.001+08:00

okay thats what me and my class and my mates for this year did. first week of school.....

2009-01-10T02:08:00.000+08:00

I don't know why but i felt fulfilled. must be something i did... never mind that, fulfilling your desire is not just for yourself but you can do it for others too.

hmmmm.... i wonder what will be next? help someone fulfill their desire makes you happy too don't you think? after all sharing is caring and help others too. So anyone who read this post, you guys will not really get much positive post from me anytime soon unless there is something special going on.

So till next time- i shall be back with my classmates pictures as i promised.

2009-01-04T21:58:00.001+08:00

alright i got my scanner back and i will try to upload as much artwork as possible and colour it and upload it and render it and render it......okay now i am lost but anyway you guys who ever visit my blog often will see my artwork soon enough......(if i ever have the time to do it)....

2009-01-04T16:11:00.000+08:00

the sky remain gloomy for 2 days now, i enjoy the weather like this in bed and hibernate more then 12 hours a day.

but not this time, i have face defeat once again in battle. as i retreat with my wounded men. i send my messenger back to the palace where my report of failure shall read by my father the king.

i was ask to return to the palace. i was questioned in the courtyard about my failure. how shall i face my fellow allied kings when they ask me how was the battle that lead by my son? my father asked. i remained quiet. he continued questioning me and i remain quiet and speechless the whole time.

i have finally realized that all my father think was his selfish reputation in front of his fellow allied leaders. i grab my sword and leave the courtyard without looking at my father's eyes. i was hoping he would show me his love to me as i fought countless battle for his reputation. this is what i get for so much i had done for his name.

i have decided i shall fight my own war only for myself not for any others name except for the one i love most.. the valkyrie...

okay this what i feel like writing and its nothing to do with anything i just have itchy fingers....

2009-01-03T01:22:00.000+08:00

i shall update more aye? here ya go~ more random pictures i took

2008-12-29T11:42:00.001+08:00

this is what you get when you are bored and the clear blue sky....

2008-12-29T10:42:00.000+08:00

Loveless

Prologue
When the war of the beasts brings about the world’s end.The goddess descends from the sky.Wings of light and dark spread afar.She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting

Act I
The infinite mystery.The gift of the goddess is what the three men seek.But their fates are scattered by war.One becomes a hero, one wanders the land.And the last is taken prisoner.But the three are still bound by a solemn oath.To seek the answer together, once again

Act II
Though the prisoner escapes, he is gravely wounded
His life is saved, however
By a woman of the opposing nation

He begins a life of seclusion with her
Which seems to hold the promise of eternal bliss

But as happiness grows, so does guilt
Of not fulfilling the oath to his friends

Act III
As the war sends the world hurtling towards destruction
The prisoner departs with his new found love
And embarks on a new journey

He is guided by hope that the gift will bring bliss
And the oath that he swore to his friends

Though no oath is shared between the lovers
In their hearts they know they will meet again

'Even if the morrow is barren of promises, nothing shall forestall my return'

i will return with the gift and a new found love

2008-12-27T11:17:00.000+08:00

things i would really enjoy....

2008-12-21T11:24:00.000+08:00

alright here ish my artwork (japanese brush) all taken using camera lazy to scan this stupid artworks.....plus this art don't worth scanning into my comp.....

2008-12-20T18:30:00.000+08:00

next year is my final year to decide which path i should take. so i've decided.....i will major is ART! and enter The One Academy which is right next to sunway pyramids.......

Which major you say??? i will take animation and US my next target!

EA games, Pixar, Dreamworks! here me come! MWAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!

but need lotta practice.........8 pieces of drawing every week.......hell......

well at least its different compare to do countless homework which is given.....BM! you suck.....BM it sucks.....suck suck suck.......i hate BM....(bahasa melayu)<<<<<< pointless subject.....not like i gonna stay here in this country anyway....

2008-12-18T15:05:00.001+08:00

alright its been a few days now....i am bored....Christmas is at my door steps waiting to knock on my door and Santa is too fat to come into the house, so he come in by the front door and what he gonna give me for this year again? lets see.......it starts with a "c" ends with "l"......it has 4 alphabet and its black in colour....and its a fossil fuel.....yes its COAL! like always......i am sorry for being a mean kid but its in my genes......i can't help it....

but still there is more then half a billion mean kids and santa is going around giving coal.....and fossil fuel is running very low recently so SANTA IS THE MEAN PERSON HERE! he don't love the environment..... he is wasting mother nature's resources......well i got 16 coals now.......hope 1 day the coal turn into diamonds~

Merry Christmas to all my good fellas who even read my blog! HOHOHO~ *cough*

2008-12-15T22:55:00.000+08:00

bought a new digital SLR the other day canon 50D. its a awesome camera i must say and so the very next day..... went to ipoh to meet up a friend she is junne also known as Kai's crush. so i was in the background to capture a picture that speak a thousand word and i mean it! so here is the sample for it and i like the most. love being in the background! *snap snap snap* WEEEE~ *fall*

Sign of randomness

2008-12-12T12:49:00.001+08:00

alright for so many places i have visited......i need see sign such as this..... well this sign found in china random part......

2008-12-11T19:23:00.000+08:00

as i was cleaning up the battle field after countless times my enemies reign war and my enemies fall in the battle field. i found a very old armor. god knows how long it been here. as i clean up the mud covered armor. piece of my forgotten memories returned. the armor of my old friend. i remember the first time i sat next to her in class and we often get scolding from our teacher as we have loads to talk.

some point i had lost all news from her. i did not know she had fall in battle. but soon after, for once i have seen her in the courtyard of life. she definitely changed alot since the last time i saw her. now that pieces of memories of her is back. i don't think i would forget the time when we were little.

2008-12-04T00:56:00.000+08:00

for once i see a Valkyrie flew above my head aid in my war. for so long i pray god for aid and does he finally reply my prayers? or the angels felt sympathy for me.

i am not sure but as i could remember i have achieve my first victory. as it land in front of me i kneel as felt pleased for its aid. she stopped me as i was kneeling and i look up to it as the sun behind her and her shinny steel armor burn my eyes.

i stood up in front of an angel. as it take of its helmet. i saw its beautiful blue eyes. the valkyrie is a she. i think i have fallen for her beauty. as she hold my hands, she gave my her sword. and disappear into the sun rays.

i am wondering if i could she her again as she flew above my head and aid me in battle. or maybe when i fall in battle i might see her in the heavens. who knows.

all i know, i should fight with her sword and achieve more victories to please her. i will not forget your aid.

2008-12-01T13:41:00.000+08:00

the fall of my legion is near as i walk across my battlefield. the war is long over but i insist to continue fight for a very long time. i should have long dead but why am i still here with my battalion? for so long i am fighting for a purpose but soon the purpose fade into the sea of greed for power.

as i see my footman die one by one and being slain by my enemy. i was thinking. why do i have to fight? whats the purpose of my war? i have send countless of men in battlefield and never care about how their love ones would feel when each of my men fall.

now i realized. why do this war begin? the reason to start a war is stupid. power? wealth? no its not it. i just want people to think i am a weakling. but i know thats a cowardly word to say. but truthfully i am a coward.

i shouldn't have sent my loyal footmen to their grave to fight for my will. i should have fought it myself. i fear death and run away from death. but death told me there is no place to hide. i keep running away and yet death still catch up to me.

2008-11-30T01:51:00.000+08:00

another hope down the fucking drain. why the fuck parents have to give fake hope to their own children. i know its stupid i say this.

i spend countless sleepless night hoping i would get my PS3. its been 3 weeks since she ask me to ask for the price for PS3. and know she is refusing to get it for me. i don't know how i gonna spend my half of my holidays.

i would love to go out but everytime there is a plan and people will shoot you down last minute so i would just stay at home a watch the tele as it loop the same movies again and again. well probably i would think of a way to rot or maybe try something new.

but there is always restrictions made by my dad who is of the window. come on i mean a kid get ear piercing why not i? a kid get a PS3 why not i?

if you wanna compare kids here i would put you on the line and compare you with their parents. you have the word "outdated" written all over your face. other parents play game why not you? other parents don't smoke why not you? other parent don't give their children fake hope why not you?

if you wanna compare i can write an encyclopedia about you and compare a better parents then you are you fucking Hippocrates. you can be stupid on purpose and why not us? don't give me the same reason saying its for your own good. MY ASS! hear me? i will say it again MY FUCKING ASS!

so readers if your parent are like that i have 1 piece of advise for you. be rebellious as much as you can. you don't have to care for their feelings as they would care for you? all they want is a peaceful retirement where endless flow of money from you when you find yourself a job. Kai is right about this point. parent don't care about your future. all they want to go around the world when they retire hoping us their children to post them money every week.

till next time more about parents

Limits

2008-11-28T23:27:00.000+08:00

every thing that existed have its limit. no matter what is it, life, love, friendship, and many more that you could mention. have a limit. not to say stop but it has boundaries that we could not cross or maybe we could but we just don't wanna go any further.

for instance, you have secrets but there is some secrets that your friends or your love ones must not know but no matter what...they will keep annoy the shit outta you to tell them....why?

well here goes the same thing. even though you said it. what can you do? what is done is done. no matter how unless you could reverse time. then i could tell you everything that i have done the moment i was born.

everything have this thin layer of fabric call limits. so if you break this fabric means you are doing something that other person will not like it so next time think before you act or if you wanna take risks for breaking a relationship with another person so go ahead and try but don't go crying for your mother.

Holidays

2008-11-16T23:13:00.000+08:00

YAY FOR HOLIDAYS! and i know i am not going to enjoy this shitty holidays....you know what i mean........what the hell is wrong this year? well PS3 is totally off my expectations and i guess i will stuck with the old PSP again......anyway WHO WANTS TO MONSTER HUNT!? kidding and i got bored until i get my WIFE! with my shitty results.........don't bet on it.......and Mr. Khezu.......give me a stupid comments ........ FOR CRYING OUT LOUD HE DON"T EVEN KNOW MY FREAKING NAME!

Mr. Khezu: eh you!
Me: ME?!
Mr. Khezu: YES YOU!

well thats how he refer to me...."eh"....and he even dare to give me a stupid comment......please........hope god bless your sorry ass that think his teaching is great......

at the horizon
*meh arsh!*

gods and humans

2008-11-13T10:31:00.000+08:00

everyone thinks that god are some humans that did something un-natural and extraordinary and they got promoted and become god.....well i watched a show and that change my point of view. have you ever thought that god might live among us like a human? those we called them as forgotten gods and humans that thought to become god are remembered. How about the actual gods that create us? the ancients that live among us? forgotten.....

please be reminded that gods do live among us. just that we don't know about it.

drawing that i will finish sketching

2008-11-01T00:14:00.000+08:00

well that picture i will get it done with pencil sketches is about....you will find out soon

Meaning of Life

2008-11-01T00:08:00.000+08:00

i just found a reason to live....i wanna to do this since the beginning of my life.....as long as i could remember i existed anyway....the thing i wanna to do ever since is jumping of a building......well thats my reason to live......not for long anyway

Make your own way

2008-10-29T03:16:00.000+08:00

Please for the love of god.....god don't have time as in NO time to bother about ones life.....please stop thinking about god has already set the way for you......BUNTUT SAYA! if god has set the way for me then there wouldn't be choices isn't it and the whole god blessed world would be perfect......crime-free world and there wouldn't be sinners.....so JUST STOP THINKING ABOUT GOD SET THE WAY FOR ME thing......its really annoying and i am serious

taking off the mask

2008-10-28T21:55:00.000+08:00

since no one as in NO ONE....taking me seriously then fine i will show you my true self and when that happens....don't come crying to become my old self...cause i had it....I HAD IT FOR PEOPLE TREATING ME AS A JOKE!

left behind

2008-10-27T00:19:00.000+08:00

recently, i have not been in class so i might missed out alot but thats not the case.....the problem is that i starting to feel that i am not belong in the class anymore.....i start to feel so faithless and a total stranger....i don't know whats going on to me....but only time can tell.....maybe i finally quitting to being a scrawny juvenil....

Monster hunter frontier

2008-10-17T12:20:00.000+08:00

well monster hunter has reach south korea and japan has just finish their beta test......i heard that MH: frontier also reach Philippines......hope it will reach hong kong.....where us malaysian MH fans get to play it.......PLEASE CAPCOM! RELEASE YOUR MH frontier HERE!

Okay i am sure you guys don't know what the heck i am talking about.....monster hunter-frontier is a new MMORPG just like normal online games...

here is the sneak peek-http://video.mmosite.com/display.php?vid=8457&gid=559

story of a girl

2008-10-16T11:19:00.000+08:00

i might be seen as a care-free pan but not all the time.......i have lot of names from pan to the child of the devil......

when i was wandering in the forest..... i met this little girl..... she is like an angel from some human but as i in the shape of a pan..... she is nothing but a ordinary human child..... and most humans will refer her as cute.....

it was clear from the time that i met her that she a nice little girl, kinda short, but hey, i wasnt exactly micheal jordon myself..... but when we met i would always notice that spark in her eyes, so full of life. yes, she was beautiful, but i only enjoyed her company as a friend, in time, we shared various personal moments, just her and i. both of us would talk about stuff, share things like secrets and just talk. along the forest floor, enjoying the sun. an angel on earth i would say filling me with so much joy.

hey, sure it sounded alot like we were two lovebirds, getting it on, but i did not however, develop feelings for her. it was a terrible thing because in time, she eventually did. confusing as it was for me, i still did not feel anything for her besides the fact that we were really good friends. afterall, i knew someone of such grace would not fall for a simple woodland creature such as i. so i suppose i only saw her as something of a sister...... when the time came for her to confess to me, i thought she was joking. i know it must have really stung but i really thought it was a joke, referring to what happened to me not too long ago, i was shot down by a siren, not directly though, the siren thought i was just joking too. she was after all, singing her song of death for another, less fortunate creature. one who was probably much more shallow and handsome as i was.

although it was quite a blow to that pretty young thing. although, an angel, no matter how injured by heart break, will rise from the ashes like a wounded phoenix, and the pan would ultimately feel lost and confused as the slow pangs of guilt settled on him like dust on the graves of the many others that had fallen prey to the siren's song. but the pan, would eventually never tire of the sirens alluring song, but he would never forget about his dear companion, the wounded angel. smiling so happily, as he played his pan flute, dancing with her hand in hand, in genuine plutonic friendship. so happy, and filled with joy. what more could you want?

it was all good after awhile, as the dust settles we went back to our daily routine, laughing and joking around. however, a being would ultimately become part of this fairytale of epic friendship. do you know whats a gnome? its a small dwarfish kinda thingy. but it can also be a small ugly person and a ruthless influential bastard with bad intentions. it was not long before it set its piercing red eyes on her blood shot and filled with deviousness. that i sensed a storm approaching. soon the gnome would become good friends with her, the angle, growing ever fond of his company as a good friend, never expected the gnome to ask the angel to become his lover. the angel, shocked, was all too surprised by this sudden question, nonetheless, being the angel that she was, she merely accepted him so she would not break his heart. personally, i thought he was a repulsive little, ugly thing. always annoying the hell out of me with his fellow gnomes, thinking he was cool as he blabbered about all his strengths and put the other creatures around him down. everytime i saw him, i rolled my eyes as he would pull me away from my company, and just talk about something i didnt care about, but being the pan i was, i merely played along to his tune, hoping he would shut the hell up.

their relationship was bound by merely speech and promise. nothing more, as the angel was never in love with him, although there were some moments where she saw some things about him that she liked, she too, was repulsed by his annoying ramblings and his short temper. soon she sought my help, she was lost, unsure whether she loved this creature or not, asking the me about what i would do, and how i felt. it was clear however their relationship was going nowhere, and she was unhappy, as she saw that horrible little annoying creature as a friend. now she is bound and tied, regretting her kindness, for she simply could not find the heart to tell the creature that she did not love him. i felt a hint of pity for her, for an angel to be chained and grounded because of a lover who she didnt even felt anything for.....

but i, a mere forest pan, could only play a tune for her sorrow, hoping she would find happiness, being a true friend, as i stand beside her and support her..... playing my flute, sitting in the sun. but when the time comes for her to require my support, i will go to her aid, as any friend would.

distance and path

2008-10-15T22:45:00.000+08:00

my distance between me and my wife is getting far apart day after day....soon she will become a thought instead of a goal......a fleeting dream.....never say this to me: try hard to reach for your dreams.... Why? cause its just pure bull.....i tried hard to get it...what do i get? yes bet on it......NOTHING!

dreams will never come true....just nightmares....-Han-

This is the dawn of my rebellion......from now on i will go my way....not yours.....not like you ever experience it......never ask me to learn shit i don't like.....

Note to parents #1: never scold or yell at your kids when they did the same mistakes that you did before...

Example: never ask your kids to learn new things when you yourselves that don't want to learn new things......

in my situation......my mum ask me to take accounts which is new for me while she sits at home and office not willing to learn new things such as english.....she expect me to speak for her....great....i know her accounts are great but i have NO as in NOO!!!! interest in it.

Lesson from dad: Me: hey dad.....do you know anything about accounts?
Dad: Hell no.....not even a single thing...*laugh*

Conclusion: If you don't know anything about accounts.....marry a wife that
knows accounting.

Note to parents #2: never as in NEVER! make promises that you can't deliver... you just make your child more rebellious.

WOOHOO~

2008-10-15T20:09:00.000+08:00

alright....i think i could take your place but i don't know what to do.....but i am glad i get the job.....at least i don't get bored......lot of things for me to learn......alright thats all for today...and the recent news about the XIV member of organization XIII is a girl name Xion (kingdom hearts)

Kingdom Hearts for NDS and PSP

2008-10-15T00:21:00.000+08:00

well i am sure KH fans wanted to know when kingdom hearts for NDS (kingdom hearts 358/2 days) it will officially release on feb 2009....soon right??? and for the PSP (kingdom hearts birth by sleep) will be coming soon on 2009....date is not available yet......bunch of smart asses of square-enix.....here is the link for trailer for this 2 games in Tokyo Games Show 2008.....http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=D_AQwsX7asE&feature=related

Wondrous

2008-10-12T16:41:00.000+08:00

I did something i never going to regret...
Something so wondrous....so....you get what i mean....
I don't know but it makes me so glad that i able to make someone so.......delighted....
Anyway.....you should get what you deserve.....whatever you think that something or someone deserve you.....
its yours....but don't forget....whats yours is yours but what is not will never be yours....even you force it....you will gave this burden in your life....

Everyone deserve something...no matter what treasure what you have..-Han-

Friends in My Heart -kingdom hearts-

Day 1 of deep depression

2008-10-08T22:12:00.001+08:00

this is the first time in my life i feel so lifeless and meaningless.....
i had enough for trying so damn hard for something that it won't happen....
i would just give up all the useless things and focus on my life-long goal.....
i try so hard and all i get is a word "well done! you did really great son!"....
thats it? well i expect something more! like getting my wife!
answer for that "you know you have SPM next year? and do you have time to even touch your playstation 3?"
I will go "why not?"
Here they go.....with their parents trademark mumble.......

i feel like shit and get more shit from them more as in not just a truck or 2 but the entire cargo shipment of it....

GAY SHIT ALWAYS HAPPEN! NEVER MAKE PROMISES TO YOUR CHILDREN IF YOU CAN'T KEEP THEM!

Surrender

2008-10-08T21:52:00.000+08:00

its time to pull the white flag.....its time to give up fight for some dumb dream that will never happen. i lost my appetite for fight....for my beloved dream.....its all gone...

Freedom

2008-10-01T21:24:00.000+08:00

everyone wants freedom.....if ones want freedom, they should learn how to be discipline. If one don't have discipline, they will end up in a box again. Why? Its simply how you control yourself. For example-
If one get freedom and without discipline, they will go out of control because they want to do whatever they want. Without discipline there is no self-control and no self-control they will commit things that will endanger someone's life.

-Do whatever you want but, think twice before doing it.- Han

Out Of My Sight

2008-09-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

I had it with you. Since that day you are annoying me. Whats the point of annoying me? If you don't it him then go tell that in his face not complaining to me every single night. i need sleep and not annoyance from you. Just go away!

Epilogue

2008-09-24T20:48:00.000+08:00

We knew this gonna happened. Things never last as we knew but why we still have to continue? I felt nothing as you turn your back at me and walk towards the horizon. I turned my back and walk in the opposite direction. No matter how much we run away from each other the world is round, cross roads. so till then we shall meet and maybe have a cup of tea?

BORED OUTTA ME WITS!

2008-09-19T19:32:00.001+08:00

being hanged is not easy. . . .you have to live with the pain and the boredom. . . .what to do? i mean a few days ago it might be interesting if those japs stay here like a week? maybe no. . . .i don't know what the hell they are talking! maybe lil. . . . .please check out me new wallpaper....100% hand made

The guardian

2008-09-17T13:55:00.000+08:00

A guardian is not a person or certain object that protect you and take blows for you. A guardian is just there to guide how your life should go not to help you go with your life. A guardian is always there, it depends you realize its there or not.

Guardian is to guide and as a advise to solve your problems -Han-

See it yourself.

Time

2008-09-17T01:58:00.000+08:00

Time is just another measurement for your life. Time is relative. Some say time is priceless and some say time is nothing but just a term. Time is priceless if you make full use of it. Time is nothing when you take it as you have plenty. Everyone have limited time also known as life span. Nature have given you a length of time and if you don't make full use of it its your problem and its too late to regret if you miss out too much because time will never go back. Time is something like a thin fabric then you walk past without realizing it. Use it fully and you will have no regrets in your life. -Han-

Kingdom hearts: Chain Of Memories (GBA)

2008-09-14T19:53:00.000+08:00

Alright square-enix is releasing it but its a remake source--kh2.co.uk for more info!

Life

2008-09-12T11:14:00.000+08:00

every breath is a breath of life that is given by the mother nature. mother nature gave birth to life and life is then judge by judgment not your plans but your sins.

Life there is up and downs. everything you do is a statement and it is depends how ones see it. Some they might see a statement as a compliment and some insult. God can only judge ones sins not plan for ones what happened in their life. It is you yourself that make what is going to happened for your life whether is up or down. Whatever you do for going up, there is always going down at a point and as for down, its you yourself wanna try hard to push the yourself to go up.

Your life is your own will. -Han-

Genesis

2008-09-12T10:58:00.000+08:00

wonder why human is a complicated creature? god create us to think and do something own own will or desire. the world begins with nothing and eventually got turn the world from nothing to zero(0).

From zero it turn to 1 where the dinosaur are created and god still not satisfy with his own creation and then dinosaurs are then evolved to a more complicated creatures.

From 1 it turns to 10 then 100. This is where dinosaurs era ended and from that day.

A new zero is then appear from the last 100. Apes appear and then from zero again it turns to 10 then 100 until today.

God is satisfy with us and wanted us to change the world into a better place not corruption, pollution, and things that will kill the work of god. God can erase us with a single click just like in the sims.

Our Sins and mistakes shall never pass on to the new zero will eventually appear. -Han-

Reason

2008-09-07T03:36:00.000+08:00

why called the hangman with a smiley face? because hangman is hang upside down and its not comfortable so wear a smiley mask to cover up the pain that will show on the face and say 'i am fine, i feel really comfortable'

the truth behind the smile

2008-09-07T02:51:00.000+08:00

Why do i have to smile when i am sad, bored, angry, and other emotions besides happy? I don't want any sympathy from you i hate it when they start to give me advises and other crap to make me feel better. To tell you the truth...its not helping its just make it worst. Why do you people still wanna ask what happened? Can you help me if you know? How about i tell you i broke up? can you get me another one? why not you just say other things to let me think other things instead. Why do i have to tolerate when someone that keep saying shit that i don't want to know, do they really deserve my tolerance? Now i remember, because i don't wanna lost a friend if i fight back and say more shit to them or fight back for myself and you would think i am being a pussy and being unreasonable. who is being unreasonable. Why don't i fight for myself? Because you behave like a child and never think about others all you think is about yourself never care about others feeling. I DON'T WANNA BE A JOKE! what will you feel if you are a living joke. think about it

okay this post is about KH3

2008-09-03T22:00:00.000+08:00

alright will kingdom hearts 3 announce on Tokyo Game show 2008? here is the source i pick this from...http://kh2.co.uk/

Things that people have to know

2008-08-21T00:57:00.000+08:00

Well i hope that all of us know about this crap cause its pretty much the best topic to begin. Its about the Internet connections. What makes it the best topic because its suck so bad that the users go outta their minds calling the repairs and ask why the connection suck so bad the answer that the person over the phone is always the servers is down for repair and thats pretty much bullshit. Logically repair would only last like two days to a week if the server blow up or something. I as a user for the "best" broadband yet have to pay every freaking month for this bullshiting crap and endure this crap and what makes my life better is prefering the recent broadband which is 25 times better then the bullshit 'Best' broadband. Well the reason i have to write this post because publishing this post took me like 15 minutes and while Downloading speed is 9.8 kbps wasting 18 hours of downloading a 500mb size file where other countries can finish downloading in like an hour or an hour and a half MAXIMUM.

....

2008-08-20T21:06:00.000+08:00

Alright. . .so i've been lazy for like weeks i don't really care anymore. having holidays and a boring one i guess. I seriously need to do something these holidays or i'll bored my freaking wits OUT! damn. . . . .. i hate this when crap always happened at the least expected moments. . . .well thats all i have to say and i hope you guys can pardon me i'm going back to my slumber. . . .

Picom PC fair

2008-08-01T20:17:00.000+08:00

Right. . .i feel bad that i can't go to this important event to get hands of new techno and Picom PC fair starts today! and ends on sunday. PC fair tips.... things get really cheap at the last 3 hours of the event and mostly alot of people and please beware of pick pockets in the crowd and also prices can really go down to WTF! price.

new games by square-enix

2008-07-31T22:34:00.000+08:00

here is some new games that gonna release by square-enix and its only in Japan sorry Square-Enix fans! URL: http://www.square-enix.com/jp/game/

To hardcore kingdom hearts fan...bad news i think

2008-07-31T22:28:00.000+08:00

here are some of the updates for kingdom hearts for the PSP/NDS/Mobile here are some info and maybe some good news...
Kingdom Hearts: Birth By Sleep
- There are some new pictures of Ven, Terra.
- Some attack or battle is named "Shot Lock System"
- Release Date: UNDECIDED

Kingdom Hearts: 358/2 Days
- SCREENSHOT Namine: "Surely she cannot endure it."
- SCREENSHOT Axel: "How many times have they returned?"
- The Organization XIII members follow their orders.
- Release Date: 2008

Kingdom Hearts: Coded
- Release Date: UNDECIDED

source: kh2.co.uk

2008-07-31T21:11:00.000+08:00

Here is today picture that I find in the net...

SUCKY connection...malaysia BOLEH!

2008-07-31T21:05:00.000+08:00

Okay.....I have to make this really quick because my internet connection turn really gay and thanks to malaysian's cool-crappy-cheap-and-I-have-to-pay-every-month-for-cheap-connection you guys know what I mean and I have to wait this post to upload and it take forever to upload. Okay here today's URL: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xxIota-k8rA&feature=related
This series is about counter strike a PC game. People who did this really good and beware of languages that not suitable for minor. Parental guidance is require for numb skulls.

Patapon+300

2008-07-29T19:14:00.000+08:00

Patapon is a great game try it sometime.

Okay this is my first post

2008-07-29T17:27:00.000+08:00

Okay as you guys can see I am a lazy person so I going to post simple post and I will show you guys what I find interesting while I am surfing the web. If I send those URLs that are not suitable for minors then you guys take it as art. Art could be anything you know? Kidding. . . . but seriously if I do please do ignore it. Can't help you know? And most importantly I might type languages that are not suitable for minor, parental guidance are need to view this blog and please do visit a doctor before viewing more contents because annoyance kills.